Donnerstag, 22. März 2012

My hope fades, my tears are gone, my thoughts resist

A loss in living

The shadow grasping the time
Taking your life into the doom
Just words formed a single line
But their pain came too soon

This smile fainiting away
Leaving there a memory
There is nothing more to stay
Only one sad story

The heart beating in pain
Crying out what it needs most
So unable to sustain
Since lost its beloved host

This tear running fast down
Telling the things no one hears
A tale that's never been shown
Because it's filled with fears

The living feeling so lost
Sleeping in its agony
The hopes all so far and tossed
But their gorge not one can see

Montag, 19. März 2012

One sad moment to remember...



Never fade, just cry



Only cry the tears that fade away
Only miss the ones who will stay
Don't get lost by the pain of thee
Only step out of this tragedy


Don't forget your beloved and friends
Don't run away from their helping hands
Keep your mind in peace and rest
To wake up again and try your best


Keep your heart safe as it still is
Keep the world that will by now miss
Forget the sins done by one
And reach for another lovely song


Forget never how sweet you can smile
Forget what's lost it's just for a while
Only believe in good that will come
One day to where you belong

Mittwoch, 7. März 2012

The story of a girl's smile

This poem is written for one precious friend of mine, inspired by the things she feels and more the things I could see when she talks of him. This smile, this expression of absolut happieness the absence of all her sadness during the moment she talks about him, this is nothing I would've been ever able to describe in words, because this is the only thing we really should call love. They hurted each other, betrayed, shared sads and fears, went apart, found others to feel love, but still they are feeling lonely without each other. Don't tell me this is only a friendship, if you think, I should tell you the whole story, but that would be too much for here, because I would not dare to talk about the lives of others too much in such a public place... god even this might be too much for them... don't care I want to publish it... I should stop talking to myself? So... let me start to tell you about the little story of a love, extending over two years now:

Neverending love

They were bound in a cage
Between them a forgotten love
This is their only written page
Which even doesn't tell enough

It was once this little girl
She was a beauty in body and mind
And if you see her I'd still swear
You would see a wonderful kind

Then we have the one she loves
Now apart but still make her smile
Maybe she just don't know enoughs
But she's happy while talking all time

Both went lost to other beings
But each thought remains for their heart
Each for the other's endless feelings
There I saw the love's greatest art

Not one came back for long
They fled away in diff'rent arms
Still they know where their hearts belong
So we wait for the final charms

And so passed months till now
When they found one thing they share
It was the time of melting snow
One word and the love was still there

Now the time is ongoing
They wait to see, hope to find
Now I wait for the next snowing
Praying for them to do all things right

Dienstag, 6. März 2012

Is it wrong to trust?

Is the one thing we called trust just a scheme of the little believe in the good of human kind? Is it just something wrong, that is doomed to be disappointed every time we feel it for someone? Or do we only have to learn, that we need lots of time, till we know who we can trust? What if someone is asking these question and still believes, that none of them should be answered with yes? Ever found someone you met the first time but was able to speak right to your heart and soul, so that you are touched by this person, drawn to another place in your mind and feel stongly that this person is someone you could tell your whole life without regretting?
The most people would say it's better to not to talk too much, to be careful, think about if this person is only showing you a wrong side of himself. But not all are doing this and also not all are thinking like this. In our live we gain many abilities, some more some less, some more extensive some only weak. Understanding a human being only out of his words, out of the pronounciation out of the sound of his voice, telling in the first place if this one is trustworthy, not lying and someone you might like from the start, this is a very rare one. It needs you to understand human behaviour in many aspects and you must be able to recognise all those little details at once in a very short amount of time, so you could make yourself a picture of this person in the first hour, sometimes even in the first 5 minutes. You may think, this is impossible, will fail very often and would bring you nothing more then ruined expectations and disappointment in all ways.
I for myself know, that I have trusted many people very fast out of those feelings and that none of them ever did something unexpected to me or something I didn't want. I learned fast what I can tell whom of them, how much and even how. So nothing ever went wrong and still I call those rare people my friends, even after years. But still the ability to trust fast is a scary one, because it also ends in a strong trust of the others. And most people don't feel very well when someone is overwhelming them with their deepest secrets, I won't also, but I'm accepting the fact that it will turn out like this and do the best out of the things people tell me. I would never betray someone who opened the most of his/her life to me, because I know how much this hurts and how much damage the personality of someone may take out of this. So there is a very strong bond between trust and soon likes, friendship and maybe love, spinned only of words, formed by feelings and finished by the first inner secret shared between each other. When you reached this, never end it, never end to trust this person and more never betray this one, it would be more than only one sadness.
So, nothing is wrong in trusting fast, if you are able to know who when and how you can trust. The thing, that many will find something wrong or bad in it is, that they are unable to fully understand the intentions of another, why this one has done or said something and so they will get a very wrong picture of a person, which is meant to be broken soon. Believe me, not many are able to life a way like this, a way of fast trusting but finding the most wonderful friendships this way. But it is still sad, because this lead us to a world of mistrust and betrayal, divorced relations and broken friendships. A sad world though. I whised the people would be able again, to look in others hearts, to see the truth in the eyes of someone, to hear the intensions out of the words only from their sound. But not many really care enough for others to do so, many won't be able to understand the importance of this and fail because of this, but it is one of the most wonderful things we could learn from and with each other. And it is a step to a greater inner peace along to the whole world I think, to be able to read a persons feeling, regardless of what and how much this one is telling in simple words. I'd love to trust everyone, but I can't, because many are simply wrong in their minds, crazy, devious and so on... but even those I can handle and can learn to get along with them, because I even know for them, what I can tell them and what not.
So when someone starts to trust you too fast, think about why, who this person is and what you feel for him/her, what you feel because of this one. Maybe you will find out, that this person is not a stranger but someone really close to your heart from the beginning and find some beautiful friendships, started with trust instead of suspicions, starting with peace instead of fighting against each other to find out if the person is worth your friendship.